detox day 3

well well... i'm rather enjoying this vegetarian diet... but at the same time i can't wait to get back to being unhealthy!!! you know what i crave the most... chicken wings... deep fried, bbq-ed... any way is good.

anyway this is what i ate today:
breakfast: soya bean milk without sugar, one orange
lunch: potato salad, some boiled vegetables and a very small slice of chocolate cake (i know i shouldn't have, but technically it is vegetarian... :P)
dinner: teppanyaki tofu, mixed vegetables and mushrooms, garlic brown rice

another 4 more days to go... :)

Detox Day 2

yesterday was miserable. i was hungry the whole day! today however, it got better.

i found an organic/vegetarian restaurant down at boat quay called Genesis Vegetarian Health Food Restaurant, and had the healthiest rice set ever.

breakfast: 1 orange, 2 cups of organic peppermint tea
lunch: brown rice with sides of boiled spinach, cabbage and carrots, stir fried petai with tomato and onion, salad, soup
dinner: vegetarian lasagne, fresh orange & pinapple juice

as you can see, lunch was really filling. somehow still missing something cos i didn't have any meat, but i think i didn't do too badly today. :) i don't think the extreme fresh fruit and vegetable detox plan is gonna work out for me... not just yet.

but let's take it one step at a time... on to day three!!!!

detox day 1

In view of my recent allergic breakout/rash, i have decided to do some form of detox. my detox plan is simple. for the next 7 days eat only fruit and vegetables, either fresh or lightly boiled in soup. no more sugar or alcohol or sauces, but organic teas and juice.

it's gonna be quite hard... i love food... and hate dieting. bah.

today is day 1...

boo

my rash is BACK!

yay!

my blog looks right again.

christmas was fun.

my friends are wonderful!

christmas service for superlife is OVER.

i got nice-meaningful presents from everyone.

i gave nice-meaningful presents to everyone.

i have the true meaning of christmas in my heart.

YAY!

Equations

happy=happy
sad=sad
moody=moody
stressed=stressed
busy=independence
rest=busy
nothing=wondering
reassurance=uncertainty
life=acceptance

sometimes...

i feel lost at work. what am i doing in banking? can someone tell me...

oh... yes... i remember now...

i'm doing it for the money.






hmmmph... so it shall be then.

bored

What a boring Saturday afternoon... everyone is busy, or has already made appointments, or is out of town. siiiiiiggggggggggghhhhhhhh...

Memories of Japan

Well, the trip to Japan was eventful... as all holidays are wont to be... lots of walking, temples, wonderful food, shopping, sleeping in, waking up early, spending time with a favourite someone, sharing a friend's life... and the list goes on.

We didn't get to see Mount Fuji at all... :(

My favourite picture from the 2000+ photos we have...
The happiest day in one of the 5 "Happiest Places in the World" - Disneyland! This photo captures perfectly our mood that day... silly and happy!

Rest of the photos are here...
Japan1
Japan2

I wanna go back to Japan again... next time to hokkaido and during sakura season! :)

wheeeee...

I've found a way to post to blogspot from work! :P Mozilla Firefox is a fantastic software... i can't view old bloglines now, and bloglines beta doesn't work on Internet Explorer, but... it does on Firefox! and i can login to blogger via Firefox as well!

I'm scared... I'm going for a 10km run on Sunday. AND I still haven't managed to complete 10km yet. the most I've run is 8km in approximately 1 hr, and I was SO TIRED after that... :( how how how? Imagine me... un-athletic me, unfit me, lazy me, me who'd rather eat than diet, yes... that me... running? siiiiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhh. why oh why... what possessed me to sign up for the race... and as if that's not enough, I'm running in the Standard Chartered 10km run too. that's in December. you know what they call people like me? CRAZY.

Haha...

meme - tagged by roo

i haven't blogged in... forever. but just cos roo tagged me...

4 Jobs I have had in my life :

1. Barrista (Santa Cruz Boardwalk)
2. some crappy (but well paying) Citibank project calling up people and getting them to sign some form
3. Basel 2 analyst in OCBC
4. Basel 2 analyst in SCB
   

4 Places I have lived :

I only have lived in 3.... :(

1. Geylang East, Singapore
2. Serangoon Gardens, Singapore
3. Santa Cruz, California

4 Countries I have been to on vacation :

1. Thailand
2. Australia
3. China
4. USA
   

4 of my Favourite Foods :

1. Foie Gras
2. Macaron's Raspberry Granite
   
3. Grilled Cod
4. Steak - Medium Rare
   

4 Places I would rather be right now :

1. Japan visiting Shuying!
   
2. San Francisco
   
3. Maldives enjoying the beautiful beach
4. Eating dessert at Macaron

4 tags

1. Momo
2. Hamu
3. Hazelnut
4. aki-hime (jan jan)
   

long time no see!

oh... i didn't realise how long it has been since i last posted. my last post was... one month ago.

heh heh... oh well...

some funny photos - the new improved minnie mouse

#1 Minnie-Joseph-Mouse
she's angry! look at her snarl...


#2 Minnie-Marv-MouseDon't you just wanna pinch her cheeks?

* Specimens are not for display only. Not for sale.

Seriously...

My company blocks EVERYTHING!!!! Pictures, personal sites (i.e.
blogs)...

AND I think most of the sites blocked were because I was accessing
them... hahahaha... :P

So anyway... no more online shopping... no more reading blogs...

The good thing (I guess) is that they haven't blocked bloglines YET, so
I can still read SOME blogs.

GRRRRRRRR slave drivers they are...

it didn't work...

well i guess blogging from work is not such a good idea after all... at the very least, i shouldn't be so adventurous and add in pics and stuff. :P

oh well... maybe i'll try again tomorrow. :)

got some celebratory dinner thingy to attend... for my dept, for our contribution to the BASEL project, and i have to go even tho I just joined. Rain says it's prob gonna be boring. oh well... free dinner at least, i guess, though... i can think so many other better things to do with my evening than having to sit and make small talk with a bunch of people i dunno very well.


siiiiiigggggghhhh

Blogging from work

Yeah as you might be able to tell… I’m BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot post to blogspot from work. Sigh… how frustrating. But somehow, they manage to block blogger’s login box from my office! It’s amazing what they can do. Really.

So anyway… I’m just trying this out ok… so if it looks funny… I’ll take it down when I get home.

I don’t have that much work to do today… which is good! But I think next week will be crazy-busy… sigh.

Anywaaaay… here’s a photo of my beloved miao miao. She actually looks pretty here! All thanks to Joseph’s wonderful photographic skills (and some minor picture editing with Picasa).

You know what, I’ve been shopping… WAY TOO MUCH!!!!! All the sales have been terrible on my pocket. And now, I’ve discovered the joy of online shopping as well. There are these wonderful things called sprees, where you can join a group of strangers who all wanna buy something from a certain site, and share the shipping costs among the group. All it takes is someone to organize these, and there are tons. Of course, you run the risk of the stuff coming in damaged, or the organizer running away with your money. But it’s oh-so-addictive, and so easy to do from your work desk! :P

Here are the 2 sites I cannot help but click on every day just to see what’s new.

online shopping in singapore - _spreee

and

online shopping in singapore - sgspree

Girls, click on these at your own risk only. :P

P.S. I will not be responsible for any losses (monetary or otherwise) anyone experiences from clicking on these links.

One saturday evening

The story of my life...

I stepped in a HUGE ass pile of red clay in Punggol. Don't ask me why I didn't see it, or how i managed to step right into it, or even what i was doing in Punggol in the 1st place...

suffice to say, it was fun, even though it was too hot, the grass was too scratchy, but spending the evening with my favourite person in the world was enough.

:)

lalalalala

so... i've decided to remove the privacy settings from my blog... because... somehow having to login to view my blog mean that i cannot view my own blog from work!!!! so irritating...

bleargh...

mood: slightly depressed

felt almost like crying when i was listening to this song in the office. fortunately i didn't actually cry. that would have been embarassing.

maybe i finally listened to the words instead of just to the tune, maybe the lyrics finally made sense, maybe... growing up makes the sadness all the more real.

白色的风车 安静的转着
真实的感觉 梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水 复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着 握住我的手

梦希望没有尽头 我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福
很可惜没有祝福 当爱你并不孤独
不会再让你哭

我背你走到最后 能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我 说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么 反正不会松手

我背你走到最后 能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手 晚一点再到尽头
你说不该再相见 只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见 因为我在等待永远

i miss ocbc...

well... at least the people there.


SCB is quite different in terms of working culture, and the racial ratio in my department is like 6 Indians to 1 Chinese. And i'm the youngest female on the whole floor probably...


I wonder how long i can last there... but i guess it's a new experience, a new adventure, a test of my adaptability.


the pantry is sweet tho... there's a fancy coffee maker, and a fridge full of canned drinks.


I still don't have my own seat! boooo... i'm currently squatting at this lady's seat - she's on MC for 2 weeks at least. i can't wait to get my own table!!! one where i can decorate with all my photos and junk.


Bettina's sunrise at Changi beach...



while the real photographer snaps away with his SLR ( with multiple fancy lenses)... bettina pulls out her trusty (pink) panasonic "baby" camera, and captures her view. the sun rising from behind the clouds, without fail, every day. A reminder that God never changes, He is the same, yesterday, today, forever. And His promises never fail.

i love handing over...

... work!

haha

4 more working days at OCBC... I can't wait to get rid of all my work!!!!!

of course i'm gonna miss my colleagues - especially my dear neighbour of 2 years ;)

but i'm not gonna miss the work!

haha not like i'm really looking forward to my new work at SCB either... it's quite scary! the boss expects me to deliver almost immediately! i'm gonna have to work... HARD! sigh.

got a 700+ page reading to do... *yawn* haven't started it yet...

God help me...

One small step across the road, A GIANT step towards Chanel

This is notification to all my darlings:

I am changing jobs! i've just signed at Standard Chartered.gonna tender my resignation tomorrow.

it's a 1 year contract position, but before you ask why i'm willing to give up a permanent job for a contract job, let me just say that the pay is just too GOOD to pass up!!!!!!!!!!!!

:)

will probably start at SCB in about a month, earlier maybe if i can use my leave to offset my notice period at OCBC. will tell u all more when i see you...


:)

a magical wedding

SO... what do weddings and magic have in common?

actually... NOTHING that i can think of really! (unless you count like a magical-fairytale-like-wedding. but the wedding i attended over the past weekend had a performing magician. really... it's the 1st time in my entire (rather short) life that i've ever attended a wedding with a magic show performance. well apparently the magician is the bride's mother's friend. so that's why he was invited to perform.

i felt a little sorry for the groom (my friend)... he's such a sweet boy, but i don't like his fiancee. :P anywayyyyy... the wedding was kinda impersonal, no slideshow with baby pictures, just one with the wedding pics. well it was expected i guess... considering they planned the entire wedding in one month!

oh... and guess WHY they had to get married in one month???? (yeah you can guess lah... i'm sure i don't have to spell it out, this post is bitchy enough already as it is)

Pictures! Me and XH in the toilet... photowhoring :P

XH, Eve, SH, Me :)

Do right woman, do right man

Take me to heart
And I'll always love you
And nobody can make me do wrong
Take me for granted
Leaving love unshown
Makes will power weak
And temptation strong

A woman's only human
You should understand
She's not just a plaything
She's flesh and blood
Just like her man
If you want a do right
All days woman
You've gotta be a do right
All night man

Yeah, yeah
They say that it's a man's world
But you can't prove that by me
And as long as we're together baby
Show some respect for me
If you want a do right
All days woman
You've gotta be a do right
All night man

2 babies

One human...

one kitten.

both oh-so-cute!

i wanna bring them both home...

tee hee hee...

karaoke at St James (and other random things)

it's a rather nice place to hang out. the rooms are fabulous... wonderful sound system... cordless mikes... too cold though...

the company was a bit weird... it was a "team" thing... my team lead from work suggested that we all go for karaoke to destress a bit. so we had 2 aunties, 1 non-chinese, 1 strange-motonous-voiced-tone-deaf-guy (NOT FROM MY TEAM!!!), and the rest of us more "normal" people.

it was rather fun, but i had more fun at eve's birthday karaoke session.

i never knew how bad the words of "my humps" sounded until the non-chinese guy and i sang it out loud yesterday. :P - that was quite funny i have to say...

today was such a self indulgent saturday... waking up laaaate, having lunch, eating ice cream out of the tub, watching Extras (this hilarious BBC TV show) and Swing Girls while lazing on the couch, then going down to town for dinner and movie with the girls.

i really love my girlfriends... i enjoy just hanging out with them. and we haven't done the "girlfriend" thing in a while too... so spidey 3 was fun, just cos i watched it with them!

i'm so random today... too many thoughts competing to be shared...

i think i should sleep... good night world...

expectations revisited

you know what's really bad about expectations... is that expectations when raised, and then dashed can really hurt.

but pain is merely a state of mind.

life without feeling. is it really that bad after all? i hope i never get to find out...

As of today

As of today, I have had worked 7 continuous days in a row.

But, JOY!!! The weekend is finally here!!!!!

As of today (actually just today), I have bought 3 dresses, 2 pairs of shoes and some satin hairbands.

bad Bettina.

As of today, I am a girlfriend for 1 week and 2 days.

... blissful happy sigh...

extreme boredom

ummm... yeah the title says it all. i'm so so so so so so bored. basically because i haven't really have much work to do for the last few days. and there is a limit to the number of blogs one can read a day (why don't people update their blogs more often!!!) and the number of people one can stalk on friendster... but well, don't look so envious now, i have to work this saturday AND sunday. sigh... the horror of it all. i really do hope sunday will just be a half day.

One good thing though, i'm on leave tomorrow. :) all because my bro, yes little nathaniel, is going to NS!!!!!! heh... i dunno if i should worry about him. he's the baby of the family... the one i buy clothes for, the one who still *sometimes* calls me jie jie, the one who got angry with me when i pushed him off the sofa and chipped his tooth... but that's another story for another day... haha. anyway, this little brother of mine, cute as he is, is not exactly what i imagine a soldier to be. definitely not like a spartan in 300... more like Saigo - ninomiya's character in Letters from Iwo Jima. hahaha... don't tell him i said that... :P He doesn't even kill cockroaches for me at home...

Oh well, maybe NS will be good for him. maybe it'll help him become a man. i hope he stays good though... they learn too many bad things in army... heh... it's weird thinking about my baby brother swearing fluently in hokkien, or... urgh... never mind... don't wanna imagine. but he has to go though this himself. we can't baby him forever, even though i kinda want to. :P

So here's a prayer for Nat:

Dear God,

I pray that you'll keep Nathaniel safe from all harm as he goes through training in NS. Grant him divine favour with his commanding officers, and help him keep a positive attitude in everything he does. Keep him safe from temptation, keep his mind pure, and his heart safe for You, no matter what situation he finds himself in. I pray that he'll learn to turn to you 1st no matter what. Bless him with good christian friends in NS who will encourage and uplift him. Help him to be a witness, a candle in the darkness that is the army.

I thank You for bringing him thus far, and I know that You will continue to watch over him.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen

A lazy Saturday, a tiring Friday and an interesting Thursday

this saturday was the most restful one i've had in the last month or so...

the weather was lovely... blue skies, white fluffy clouds and a bright-just-right-for-tanning-sun.

well i didn't exactly sleep in, but i did manage to sneak in an afternoon nap. (the joy!!!)

In the morning, i went wakeboarding with jaime and jas. my 3rd time, i think i can stand quite stable-ly now... even though i forgot how to get up properly the 1st 3 times... i can ride with one hand! yay!!! that's a major accomplishment for psycho-motor-challenged/balance-impaired/clumsy me.

look... proof!!!! :)

anyway, so on Good Friday, eve came to my church for service. a picture of us on the roof terrace. we really do have a million dollar view. :P

Thanks for coming dearie, and i hope this will not be the one and only visit. you must come again!

After church, went down to town for a bit of shopping and watched freedom writers... it's such a touching show. i really admire Erin Gruwell for her passion and her dedication towards her students. she believed in them when no one else did, and really made a difference to those kids' lives.

Since i am going backwards in time, i reach thursday, of which its main activity was something i'd never done before in my life - visit the Night Safari. Murphy seemed to be working extra hard that evening... but it made for an experience i will probably never ever forget. to the one who planned it, thank you, i enjoyed myself. :)

Finally let's backtrack 2 weeks to the day before momo left. From our dinner at Jumbo, a photo of momo (with coco the bear), who is shopping up a storm in tokyo. ;) don't they look adorable...

Expectations

Expectations are the shits.

It would be nice if I didn't have any expectations of anything/anyone. I'd never be disappointed, cos if something good happened, it would be a pleasant surprise, and if nothing good happened, it would be... well... just life as usual.

Seems like a pessimistic way of looking at life? I guess so... but it saves a person from the emotional trauma one faces when disappointments occur.

to keep on my rose tinted glasses, i risk my emotional wellbeing. to throw them away, would be to not live at all.

Happy-ness

it's terrible how my mood swings from one post to another. :P

i've got nothing to complain about this week. every single day, i am able to find something that makes me happy. and it's a blissfully-sappy kinda happy too. siiiigh. (and that was a happy dreamy sigh)

catharsis

Pronunciation: k&-'thär-s&s
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural ca·thar·ses /-"sEz/
Etymology: New Latin, from Greek katharsis, from kathairein to cleanse, purge, from katharos
1 : PURGATION
2 a : purification or purgation of the emotions (as pity and fear) primarily through art b : a purification or purgation that brings about spiritual renewal or release from tension
3 : elimination of a complex by bringing it to consciousness and affording it expression

This weekend necessitated some form of carthartic release. it was a crazy weekend. my life is usually kinda boring, and relatively peaceful, but the emotional ups and downs of the weekend have been... tiring to say the least.

in brief, lack of sleep; being forced into going for a deparment event; denial; painful sadness; intense tiredness; losing; being told that i've got an inferiority complex; upset-ness; being told that not just one person thinks that way; depression; family disagreements; overwhelming emo-ness, culminated in my newest ear piercing.

haha... so i'm not that much of a bad girl... getting another hole in my ear is probably as wild as i can get.

I Wish You Love <3

I wish you bluebirds in the spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss
But more than this
I wish you love

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health
But more than wealth
I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never be
So with my best
My very best
I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all
When snowflakes fall
I wish you love
But most of all
When snowflakes fall
I wish you love

Ikea, Superlife, and Work (or the lack of)

i love walking around Ikea. it's amazing how much crap i wanna buy just walking around Ikea. and the best part, i never go to Ikea just walking out with that 1 item that i went there to buy. i always end up buying rubbish-y stuff that i think will make my life better.

like for example, i got these hanging things to replace the one i previously had, which was now really old and dusty...

And to Komplement it, i also got these drawer thingies that fit into each slot. so useful to keep all my stuff.

I also got these nice white boxes to throw my cds in, instead of leaving them all over the place. i'm on my way to getting my life organised! haha...

Oh anyway, this super cute boy is Yihui's baby brother... he's 7, and in superlife! and... he likes me! haha... he came up to sit beside me during service last sunday. and asked me how to find the memory verse in the bible. so cuuuuute...

hehe i love my superlife kids. and especially last sunday. they were mischevious and rowdy, but they also worshipped really enthusiastically. their singing brought a smile to my face and tears to my eyes. this was the song they were singing:

I WANT TO KNOW YOU LORD
YOU ARE A GREAT BIG GOD
I'M YOUNG AND DO NOT KNOW A LOT
COME AND BE MY ALL

I WANT TO LOVE YOU MORE
GIVING YOU MY LIFE AND ALL
YOU DIED FOR ME YOU'VE SACRIFICED
I WON'T FORGET YOU LORD

I LOVE YOU JESUS
I'LL GROW UP KNOWING YOU
I LOVE YOU JESUS
I'LL GROW UP SERVING YOU
I LOVE YOU JESUS
MY LIFE IS SAVED BY YOU
I'LL NEVER FORGET
NEVER FORGET
I'LL GROW UP LOVING YOU

EDIT:

siiiiggghhh... i really pray that every single one of them will remember this song forever, even when they grow up.

you know i'm really free at work when i can blog during working hours. hahahaha... anyway this week has been really easy. not busy, nothing much to do, i finish my work too fast every day, and can even help other colleagues do their work. haha. but don't tell my boss that. i'm sure i'll get busy again soon. i better enjoy this lull while i can.

i have to go for some stupid department event this saturday - an island wide photohunt. 9-freaking-AM. sigh on the 1st weekend i have relatively free, i STILL have to wake up early. bah. the boss actually called me down to ask why no one on my floor was going for the event. I had to make the supreme sacrifice for my team, and said "Yes, i'm going for the event." We're split up into teams of 4, and guess whose team i'm in? yes. that's right. the boss's (grammatical error?) team. i'm gonna have so much fun this saturday morning. yup. i can so tell already.

See you soon, my friend

be warned. this is a super emo post.





i'm not saying goodbye, nor am i saying farewell.

the words i will say are "talk to you later", and "see you again soon".

even though you're gonna be far away from singapore, and i won't have your company for 6 months, we've got email, msn, telephone.

i will surely miss you. so much.

take care of yourself, i'm only a phone call away if you need me.

be happy!

love you...

the weekend!

it feels like many days have passed since Chinese New Year, when actually it was just one month ago that i was gorging on pineapple tarts and bak kwa. so many things seem to have happened since then. i keep thinking that it's been at least 2 mths since CNY. don't laugh, but the only reason why this thought popped into my mind is because... my curly hair is now -almost- straight!!! i permed my hair on 5th Feb, which means my hair stayed curled for at most1 1/2 months...

So yes... back to the topic, Momo brought me and joe as guests to the Chanel Fashion Show on Friday.

i have to say... attending a *real* fashion show is an experience. beautiful (expensive) clothes, beautiful (skinny) models, beautiful (famous/rich) people. yeah that kinda sums up the show.

Isn't this girl pretty? some of the models were too thin though. and because the chanel shoe collection was made up of really chunky platform plastic shoes, those really skinny models walked soooo weirdly. 2 or 3 looked like they were gonna fall over with every step they took. oh maaaan, attending a fashion show makes you such a bitch. haha... i've never been this bitchy... seriously. the whole time we were waiting for the show to start we were just like... "OMG look at that lady, she's wearing gold pants", "why is that person wearing a yellow wig?", "oh the guy in the gold tie is cute", "kit chan probably had botox done". famous sightings... Zoey Tay - she's SO PRETTY!!!, Kit Chan, David Gan, one of the Melwani sisters, and some model that i've seen in the newpapers before.

yeah that's us trying for a model-esque look. :P

Saturday, attended Rachael Yamagata's concert at the esplanade. her songs are really emo... reminds me of a pity party. the kind of songs i like to listen to when i get depressed.

Sunday! Sunday was just how all the other Sundays have been for the past few months. Church. Friends. the perfect way to spend any Sunday. but the only difference, we actually travelled halfway across singapore (to HV) for lunch and to play Cranium at Joe's house.

1st, lunch at Da Paolo Pizza Bar...

green was the colour of the day!

The only sad thing about this weekend was the thought that this is the last weekend for the next 6 mths that momo will spend with us.

sigh... much as i tell her that i won't cry at the airport and that we'll find a replacement to fill up her "spot" in the girlfriends club... i know, you know, momo- you better know, that it's not gonna happen that way. sheesh... i'm tearing up just thinking about it. there's more i could say, but i'm at work. it's not too professional for me to start crying in front of my computer... my colleagues already think i'm mad for laughing so hard at marvin's "English Metaphors" email this morning. they're gonna think i've got multiple personalities. :P

why i haven't blogged

well you all know i've always been lazy... :P but fear not, my memories still have been captured, because the people that i spent most of my days with for the past 2 weeks have been blogging faithfully. much more eloquently and poetically than i ever could, i should add, with pictures and all. hehe... can u see my laziness oozing out with every word i say?

my brief version of the past 2 weeks...

1 Mar 07

Stupid Girl and Idiotic Guy irritate me

3 Mar 07

Consultant-Rain throws a party, and we turn his house into a gambling den...


of course, the "good" girl that i am, i didn't gamble... one guy lost ALL his money, and even had to borrow money from another guy. think he lost a more than $150. really watching him gamble is scary. they were playing "in between"- a game of greed, guts and glory. he's got too much greed, and guts, and totally no glory. he bets recklessly. if i was his girlfriend, i would never marry him. i'd be worried for my future, and whether he'll one day gamble the house away.

4 Mar 07

Pammie's 21st birthday party... pammie wammie's all grown up now, into this beautiful young lady... siiiigh... time passes so quickly.

9 Mar 07

took leave, and went with shuying to make glasses, then went to her house to help transfer programs to her new laptop, then clubbing at St James Powerstation. Movida was... interesting... they play Banghra music... but with sufficient alcohol, that could be overlooked. overall, FUN!

10 Mar 07

PS cafe for "brunch" at 2pm. hehe... PS cafe is the perfect place to while away a lazy saturday afternoon. i love the scrambled eggs. i've never had such wonderful scrambled eggs. moist, fluffy, buttery... i totally love them.

Michelle's house for an 8 course degustation dinner lovingly prepared by Chef Ng. really really good food!
and of course the requisite game of Taboo that the girls always play whenever we gather at somebody's house. the singaporean version is so much harder than the ang-moh version... and some really weird words too.

10 Mar 07

2 movies, 300 and dreamgirls. 300 is wonderful- bloody without being gory, heroic without being cheesy, entertaining without being corny. i've never seen so many buff men in one movie before. and i've never felt so bloodthirsty in a movie before. kill kill kill!!!!!! it's so stylised... like watching the comic come to life on a movie screen.

dreamgirls was fluffy. just the way a musical movie should be. the singing was fabulous. a little anti-climatic after the intensity of 300, but rather good overall.

it was an eventful but extremely tiring weekend. and i learnt one new thing about myself: drinking a double tall low fat vanilla caramel macchiato will keep me awake for 12 hrs. don't ask how i know... siiiigh...

Anyway, one thing i can blog about... you know, much as i hate working, and i always say, "work is just work", i also have to say it's nice to know that what i've been spending most of my days on is appreciated and my time has not gone to waste. i just got my appraisal, and seeing the grades, and reading the comments written by my team head, it gives me the assurance that the freaking-long-hours i put in during UAT, the weekends/public holidays spent in office, the "scoldings" from the consultants are... well... at least a little... worth it.

and following the appraisal, it was time to collect what the bank owed me for 2 whole years. i've seen ppl collect bonus letters twice already, over 2 years, and i didn't qualify for either one. finally, it's my turn. well the bonus wasn't fantastic, but i thought the increment was pretty good. And there's other options and opportunities to explore too. :)

the highlights of the coming weekend:

Friday night: Chanel Fashion Show and Party
Saturday: Rachael Yamagata Concert
Sunday: Board games at someone's house(?)

yay! maybe i'll put up pictures after this weekend... :)

it never rains but pours...

... and so pouring it is. from my window on the 40th floor, i can barely see the ground.

so, i am, here in my office. the thunder is roaring, the sky is dark. so dark. waiting for a laspe in the rain.

siiiiigh....

tiredness is...

... sleeping 5hrs on Friday, then sleeping 4 hrs on Saturday, THEN, drinking a doubleshot tall latte at 5pm on Sunday and not being able to fall asleep until 5am on Monday morning.

guys are stupid

Pompous, Know-it-All, Insensitive, Low-EQ guys PISS ME OFF!!!!!

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Idiots, all of them.

and that's all i have to say.

Save the Cheerleader, Save the WORLD!

heroes has disappeared from youtube... :(

sob...

bettina is in mourning.

skinny is beautiful

and i hate it.

i'm beginning to get tired of getting comments like "wah you lost SO much weight", "you look so good after you lost weight", i think the "best" comment so far must have been "bettina, you look like you lost a ton!"... blah blah blah... but that's not really the point here.

most of the time, i don't really know how to respond to statements like these. seriously, what do they want me to say? ok. maybe for the "you look good" kind of statements, i would say "thank you" because it is a compliment after all. but then how is "you lost weight" a compliment? it's not. it's just a statement of fact. and in effect, it could go both ways. if u tell an anorexic that she lost weight, it actually has a negative connotation.

why does beautiful have to be skinny? why does the world think so? why does the media perpetuate this thinking? why do I believe it too?

i won't deny that i set out to lose weight, or that i'm happy to have lost weight - i mean i think i look better in clothes now (even this statement contains so many sociological implications), but... i'm still disgusted with how much i have absorbed the superficiality of this world.

can a person really not be fat and still beautiful?

but having said all that... i still wanna lose another 3 kg.

hahahahaha...

i am such a superficial creature.

oh yeah, btw, this rant is not directed at anyone reading my blog. this outpouring of thoughts is a result of a comment from a colleague i bumped into after work yesterday.

If you would just stay in your box, I would be okay...

I would like to extend some thoughts about momo's post on her blog "Hmmm... why?".

been thinking abt all this, and you know some of us (me included) always compartmentalize the people around us into convenient boxes, and keep all the stuff we know about them in nice compact mental files. i am aware that this gives us some assurance and measure of stability. we "know" what the other person is like, what they will say, and how they will react in different situations. as long as the person stays in their box.

now you would be safe if the people around us would stay in those little boxes that you've built for them. but the thing is, people change, relationships change... and they move out of their allocated boxes. after they move out of their boxes, suddenly, you have to figure them out again. in their boxes, they lose the ability to hurt us, because whatever they do, you can just say "but then he/she's always like that". but once out of their boxes, that is when we will not be able to use that excuse. suddenly every action gets magnified and every word becomes personal. but yet, because they don't have a box, you cannot get angry/upset, the rules are not there...

sigh...

dreamgirls

the movie that we didn't watch because yours truly booked tickets at the wrong cinema. (i'm really sorry, momo, grashopper and roo)

i've learnt my lesson now, one should NEVER for any reason watch Heroes, open 2 cathay booking windows at the same time, and then try to book the tickets on one of the windows after deciding that we should watch at the cathay instead of cineleisure. something is bound to go wrong.

however because of my mistake, we watched the cheesiest movie of all time instead - Ghostrider. it was so corny to the extent that it was really funny. it had the cheesiest and most predictable storyline and dialogue.

yeah... that was the only bright side of the whole situation (that was my fault- totally). it was a good laugh. :D

歌曲：暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

停在這裡

Heroes and Chinese New Year

Just started watching Heroes yesterday after hearing SO MUCH about how good it is. and YES it is AWESOME!!!! i don't usually get so hooked onTV, but this show just keeps me wanting to know what's happening next. Everyone should watch it.

i like the flying guy - cos it's always been my dream, to fly!!! but in my dream i have wings. more like the X-men guy (in X-men III) with white feathery wings. i also like the funny japanese guy who can time/space travel! and his name- Hiro. haha... the writers are quite amusing. i'm only at episode 2... i can't wait to find out what happens. tomorrow i can prob squeeze in 2 episodes. hahaha...

I love CNY. food, food and more food. siiiiiiigh.... oh of course meeting the relatives are fun too. :P

As time goes by, and everyone gets older, people change, old ones pass on, and new ones are born. i am reminded of the the cycle of life. one of my aunts commented today in chinese "ren shen jiu shi shen, lao, bing, si". loosely translated as "All there is to Life is Birth, Growing older, Sickness and Death". which is so true. everyone no matter who you are, will eventually go through these 4 "stages" of life. life on earth is so transient, which makes it all the more important what i do to ensure that i have prepared myself for my eternal destiny. and living out my purpose on this earth to the fullest.

my dear extended family: the young, the growing older and the old...

singles of the world unite

the one day in the entire year, where couples reign supreme, guys spend big bucks, and the girls whom those same guys spend all that money on, walk around smugly with big bouquets/rings/stuffed toys/whatever.

the one day in the year where those who do not have someone they call their other half, hibernate at home and wish that the night would pass quicker.

the one day where i wish i was like one of those couples - in love.

Valentine's Day.

siiiiiiiigh.

I can't sleep!

... it's kinda depressing. A nice Sunday morning, and i'm wide awake at 8.30am in the morning.

So anyway, updates on my life so far,

Diving at Similans and Koh Bon was awesome! The best sightings of the entire trip were of the Manta Rays at Koh Bon.

They're really wonderful, HUGE, majestic, and they come so close to us! When i go diving , it's like I'm in a really fascinating world. It's really pretty and colourful, with so many different things to see! And the best part, you don't get hot and sticky and sweaty underwater.

This is the boat we lived on. It's quite okay. Better than I expected. Rooms and toilets were small, but clean. And it didn't matter anyway, we spent most of our waking hours on the deck. It was totally relaxing. Wake up, dive, eat, dive, eat, nap, dive, nap, dive, eat, sleeeeeep. What a wonderful life. Next time, when I'm rich, I wanna own a yacht. siiiiiigh... dreams.

Anyway back to reality, 2 belated birthday celebrations the past 2 weekends...

Happy Birthday Kokoro... (apologies for the fuzzy pic. children are so hard to photograph... sigh)

Happy Birthday Joseph... you are such a lucky man... :P

oh yeah, btw, i permed my hair! nice nice? :) Took like 4 hours sitting at the salon. I was so tired after it was done. but it's a change lah. was getting really really bored with straight hair.

and now, it's 10am i'm gonna be late for church. darn.

sick sick, everyone's sick

that would include me, my boss, 1 guy sitting beside me, another guy sitting on the 17th, and random other people.

that's why i'm home today, bored out of my wits. can't fall asleep, nothing to do. it's pouring outside, which should have been perfect weather to sleep in. but alas, i have daytime insomnia. bah.

oh blood diamond is a really good show, for those who are interested... leonardo was awesome. and its really quite emotional and touching too. well... the american/capitalist/hollywood thing about it was... the message at the end of the show wasn't "STOP BUYING DIAMONDS". it was "stop buying CONFLICT diamonds"... hahaha... after all, the diamond industry brings so much money to america.

wonderful, my roof has a leak. how do i know? a drop of water just fell on me. and being the weak helpless woman i am, i don't know what to do about it. that's what men are for. let my dad fix it. :P i'll report the issue to him tonight.

maybe i'll go lie down now and try to sleep. siiiiiigh....

another party

so there was another party on Friday. it was okay... not all that fun... mainly cos of the company. siiiigh. not that the people who were there were not nice people, but the usual people i go out with, all couldn't make it for some reason or other :(

oh well. the party was for a colleague's bday. so it's one of those gotta go thingys... a brief summary of the party:
1. i did not get drunk
2. the birthday boy bit me (and juls and theresa)
3. the birthday boy's friend asked me out for lunch one of these days
4. the birthday boy got suuuuper drunk by 1.30am and had to be sent home
5. i went to extremely crowded phuture and got groped by YOUNG 18 year old kids
6. i was sooooo tired by 3am and wanted to go home
7. one of the girls i was partying with got this guy who likes her to send us both home

that was the whole party. it was moderately fun... had fun dancing. i haven't danced in such a long time!!!!!! i want tooooo....

oh and the best part of it all... i didn't get hungover the next day! haha.

and i wish i had a photo like the one below... (i did it in paint lah... was bored at work as you may be able to tell :P) but i have one with an uglier guy beside me instead... siiiiigh. where have all the cute guys in the world gone? one of the most profound questions in the world aye... i am so deep... (right, like a puddle)



u guys get to see the rest of the uncensored pics but don't anyone go and tell keith... :P

Keith's Birthday Party - Uncensored

Blog Music

FINALLY i've managed to post music in the simplest way possible.

No need for flash players or windows media players or any other stupid things that need me to upload countless things. this website works brilliantly! or until they get shut down. :P

Momo... your turn next. :)

private blog...

hehe... sorry for the inconvenience caused. i just cannot stand the thought of little kids (aka megalife kids) reading my blog.

must try not to be a bad influence lah... :P this is my act of public service.

We wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

We are happy. The festive season is over, and even though We has to work, everyone back in the office is either
1) still on leave
or
2) not very interested in working.

We have condensed the past 2 weeks in a series of photos for your viewing pleasure...

Christmas Musical-Strings

The 2 vain-est P6s We've ever known, Kiki and Lala. They are only kids who wanted more makeup, more glitter, bigger hair. We shudder to think what these 2 little lasses will be like when they grow up (images of drag-queens flash by). We thinks that they are totally adorable now, however.

Christmas Day

We likes artistic shots... or at least artistic-shot-wannabes. And We thinks heart shaped foam in coffee cups is cute. :)

Christmas Night

We went for dinner on Christmas Day with the girls (and boys). We loves excuses to dress up. We was probably too overdressed for dinner in Singapore, but much fun anyway.

in order of tan-ness: blackie, normal, whitey

Don't We looks fabulous...

Can you guess what We are doing? Just a hint, primary school math may come in handy here. (yes We knows We're missing 8 & 9... but whatever... details details...)

The best looking table at Ember

Girls-Dressed-Up!

New Year Holiday

For some reason the father adores going for a holiday in Malaysia over the new year's weekend. We has been doing this for 2 years in a row.

We had a relaxing weekend...

On the beach at Port Dickson

Family Photo

We loves the time spent with the family. We thinks that this year, We should try spending more time with the family. We don't want to have regrets à la the movie Click.