Save the Cheerleader, Save the WORLD!

heroes has disappeared from youtube... :(

sob...

bettina is in mourning.

skinny is beautiful

and i hate it.

i'm beginning to get tired of getting comments like "wah you lost SO much weight", "you look so good after you lost weight", i think the "best" comment so far must have been "bettina, you look like you lost a ton!"... blah blah blah... but that's not really the point here.

most of the time, i don't really know how to respond to statements like these. seriously, what do they want me to say? ok. maybe for the "you look good" kind of statements, i would say "thank you" because it is a compliment after all. but then how is "you lost weight" a compliment? it's not. it's just a statement of fact. and in effect, it could go both ways. if u tell an anorexic that she lost weight, it actually has a negative connotation.

why does beautiful have to be skinny? why does the world think so? why does the media perpetuate this thinking? why do I believe it too?

i won't deny that i set out to lose weight, or that i'm happy to have lost weight - i mean i think i look better in clothes now (even this statement contains so many sociological implications), but... i'm still disgusted with how much i have absorbed the superficiality of this world.

can a person really not be fat and still beautiful?

but having said all that... i still wanna lose another 3 kg.

hahahahaha...

i am such a superficial creature.

oh yeah, btw, this rant is not directed at anyone reading my blog. this outpouring of thoughts is a result of a comment from a colleague i bumped into after work yesterday.

If you would just stay in your box, I would be okay...

I would like to extend some thoughts about momo's post on her blog "Hmmm... why?".

been thinking abt all this, and you know some of us (me included) always compartmentalize the people around us into convenient boxes, and keep all the stuff we know about them in nice compact mental files. i am aware that this gives us some assurance and measure of stability. we "know" what the other person is like, what they will say, and how they will react in different situations. as long as the person stays in their box.

now you would be safe if the people around us would stay in those little boxes that you've built for them. but the thing is, people change, relationships change... and they move out of their allocated boxes. after they move out of their boxes, suddenly, you have to figure them out again. in their boxes, they lose the ability to hurt us, because whatever they do, you can just say "but then he/she's always like that". but once out of their boxes, that is when we will not be able to use that excuse. suddenly every action gets magnified and every word becomes personal. but yet, because they don't have a box, you cannot get angry/upset, the rules are not there...

sigh...

dreamgirls

the movie that we didn't watch because yours truly booked tickets at the wrong cinema. (i'm really sorry, momo, grashopper and roo)

i've learnt my lesson now, one should NEVER for any reason watch Heroes, open 2 cathay booking windows at the same time, and then try to book the tickets on one of the windows after deciding that we should watch at the cathay instead of cineleisure. something is bound to go wrong.

however because of my mistake, we watched the cheesiest movie of all time instead - Ghostrider. it was so corny to the extent that it was really funny. it had the cheesiest and most predictable storyline and dialogue.

yeah... that was the only bright side of the whole situation (that was my fault- totally). it was a good laugh. :D

歌曲：暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

停在這裡

Heroes and Chinese New Year

Just started watching Heroes yesterday after hearing SO MUCH about how good it is. and YES it is AWESOME!!!! i don't usually get so hooked onTV, but this show just keeps me wanting to know what's happening next. Everyone should watch it.

i like the flying guy - cos it's always been my dream, to fly!!! but in my dream i have wings. more like the X-men guy (in X-men III) with white feathery wings. i also like the funny japanese guy who can time/space travel! and his name- Hiro. haha... the writers are quite amusing. i'm only at episode 2... i can't wait to find out what happens. tomorrow i can prob squeeze in 2 episodes. hahaha...

I love CNY. food, food and more food. siiiiiiigh.... oh of course meeting the relatives are fun too. :P

As time goes by, and everyone gets older, people change, old ones pass on, and new ones are born. i am reminded of the the cycle of life. one of my aunts commented today in chinese "ren shen jiu shi shen, lao, bing, si". loosely translated as "All there is to Life is Birth, Growing older, Sickness and Death". which is so true. everyone no matter who you are, will eventually go through these 4 "stages" of life. life on earth is so transient, which makes it all the more important what i do to ensure that i have prepared myself for my eternal destiny. and living out my purpose on this earth to the fullest.

my dear extended family: the young, the growing older and the old...

singles of the world unite

the one day in the entire year, where couples reign supreme, guys spend big bucks, and the girls whom those same guys spend all that money on, walk around smugly with big bouquets/rings/stuffed toys/whatever.

the one day in the year where those who do not have someone they call their other half, hibernate at home and wish that the night would pass quicker.

the one day where i wish i was like one of those couples - in love.

Valentine's Day.

siiiiiiiigh.

I can't sleep!

... it's kinda depressing. A nice Sunday morning, and i'm wide awake at 8.30am in the morning.

So anyway, updates on my life so far,

Diving at Similans and Koh Bon was awesome! The best sightings of the entire trip were of the Manta Rays at Koh Bon.

They're really wonderful, HUGE, majestic, and they come so close to us! When i go diving , it's like I'm in a really fascinating world. It's really pretty and colourful, with so many different things to see! And the best part, you don't get hot and sticky and sweaty underwater.

This is the boat we lived on. It's quite okay. Better than I expected. Rooms and toilets were small, but clean. And it didn't matter anyway, we spent most of our waking hours on the deck. It was totally relaxing. Wake up, dive, eat, dive, eat, nap, dive, nap, dive, eat, sleeeeeep. What a wonderful life. Next time, when I'm rich, I wanna own a yacht. siiiiiigh... dreams.

Anyway back to reality, 2 belated birthday celebrations the past 2 weekends...

Happy Birthday Kokoro... (apologies for the fuzzy pic. children are so hard to photograph... sigh)

Happy Birthday Joseph... you are such a lucky man... :P

oh yeah, btw, i permed my hair! nice nice? :) Took like 4 hours sitting at the salon. I was so tired after it was done. but it's a change lah. was getting really really bored with straight hair.

and now, it's 10am i'm gonna be late for church. darn.